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esskay
Digital storyteller, Photographic narrator, Hogwarts alum. In real life, I write things. I speak fluent sarcasm. I'm unintentionally funny. My favorite thing is food. Guac is life. I'm a fountain of the most random information. I'm pretty, only because it's weird to call oneself beautiful. I'm weird in all the good ways. I live in the greatest city on Earth. I was Sasha before Beyonce was schizophrenic. My life is stranger than fiction. But please, don't take my word for it. My pen is mightier than my sword. Instagram
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Wednesday, July 7, 2010 || 8:27 AM
Dear Sean,It’s been 6 months, 1 week and a day since you’ve been gone and I haven’t stopped missing you once. I had the most vivid dream about you last night. It was almost like you were here again. I remembered the way you spoke so clearly, every inflection of your voice and your facial expressions. It seems my subconscious mind remembers you a lot better than my conscious one. Not that I haven’t been trying. Even though I don’t want to, it’s human nature to forget. I feel you slowly slipping away and I’m trying to hold on to you for dear life. I guess it’s no use holding on if you’re gone but even if no one else remembers you, I’d like to. It’s just that my mind won’t let me like it used to. Even now, I have a bit a trouble seeing you in Junior’s face. I wish I had a picture but once again, you married the biggest…I won’t go there now. Just know that I tried, for Junior’s sake. And now I’m done trying because there’s only so much one person can take. I miss you so much it hurts. And every time I think about the fact that you’re really not here, it’s like losing you all over again. More than ever when I think about my own stupidity and our stubbornness. I just hope that one day, remembering you won’t be a sad thing. Especially in the hope of seeing you again. And I’d like to hope that there will be a time, sometime in the near future, when I can be happy again too. I used to be a happy person and I really miss her. I’m having as much trouble remembering her as I’m having remembering you. I miss you and I’ll always love you. And even though you’re gone, you’re still my favorite. Sasha Labels: personals |