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esskay
Digital storyteller, Photographic narrator, Hogwarts alum. In real life, I write things. I speak fluent sarcasm. I'm unintentionally funny. My favorite thing is food. Guac is life. I'm a fountain of the most random information. I'm pretty, only because it's weird to call oneself beautiful. I'm weird in all the good ways. I live in the greatest city on Earth. I was Sasha before Beyonce was schizophrenic. My life is stranger than fiction. But please, don't take my word for it. My pen is mightier than my sword. Instagram
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Monday, August 3, 2009 || 10:26 PM
things that should be simple are often quite complicated. i can't understand why humans have a tendency to make things into more then they are or into something they're not. like friendship, for instance. i, for one, am blessed with amazing friends, the kind that last years and years and who i know will have my back through thick and thin. because of my lack of patience for the female species (no offense), i have more guy friends than girls. however, sometimes in these friendships, things seem to go places i'd rather they didn't go. why must someone always want more? why isn't my friendship enough? what's sad is that i feel like it's not really me they like, but more the idea of me, if that makes any sense. these thoughts are making my head spin, but i don't know what else to do with them. so now i'm thinking i should try to explain who i am, just so there's no misunderstanding. i hate talking about myself, because at times, i feel like i don't even really fully know myself. i'd much rather see myself through the eyes of others, it seems like a less clouded view. but i'll try my hardest to paint a picture of what i see.one thing i know for sure is that i love to laugh. people think i'm funny but i don't really think so. a friend of mine once told me that funny people never really think they're funny. i dunno how true that is but i guess. i surround myself with funny people because of my love of laughter. laughter is contagious, it's not difficult to get me started. i also don't mind being by myself. i don't always need to be around people because i like to be on my own, to better hear my thoughts. i love to write (obviously), it's my favorite way to express myself. the funny thing is, when i start to write, i never end up going in the direction that i thought i would. but i'm ok with that, it makes for more interesting stories (or in this case, blogs). i think i'm a very nice person, i always give people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes when they don't even deserve it. i'm slow to anger but easily annoyed and i can be a real bitch if you push me. if you earn my trust, you'll have it forever but if you break it, you'll never fully regain it. and of course, i'm a God fearing woman. i love Him, i trust Him, my life is in His hands. i don't really know what else there is to say. i have flaws, i bleed when you cut me, i cry when you hurt me, i smile when there's reason to and sometimes i smile just because. i have good days and i have bad days. i'm human and perfect in my imperfection. nothing more, nothing less, i'm just me. Labels: babble and rant, personals |