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esskay
Digital storyteller, Photographic narrator, Hogwarts alum. In real life, I write things. I speak fluent sarcasm. I'm unintentionally funny. My favorite thing is food. Guac is life. I'm a fountain of the most random information. I'm pretty, only because it's weird to call oneself beautiful. I'm weird in all the good ways. I live in the greatest city on Earth. I was Sasha before Beyonce was schizophrenic. My life is stranger than fiction. But please, don't take my word for it. My pen is mightier than my sword. Instagram
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Monday, October 1, 2012 || 12:36 PM
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." -Eleanor Roosevelt "Don't let anything or anyone make you feel so inferior that you fall apart. You built the blocks of your life, nobody can take them down but you." -Cass *sigh* I hate Mondays. My weekend was...interesting. I was having a conversation a few days ago with a friend of mine and we were talking about putting yourself out there for someone and having them shit on your feelings. Not necessarily in a romantic sense because it happens in friendships and even familial relationships all the time. And we've both recently been in situations like this so I told him that the last time it happened to me, I cried for hours and then I promised myself that I would never put myself in a situation like that again. However, being a woman AND a Christian, I find myself stumbling into these things more often than I'd like. The Christian thing to do would be putting yourself out there and caring for your fellow man and I'm all for that but the same can't be said for everyone. People look out for self more than anything else but at this point I can't even say that I blame them. Being Christian doesn't mean being perfect. In fact, I feel like part of it is acknowledging your imperfections and the fact that you're only human. But when it comes to other people, I'm through with giving more of myself than I can afford to. Because I've had to learn that if you give more than you get, you'll find yourself out of balance. And you don't give just to receive but at some point, you have to realize that another person won't care about you more than you care about yourself. And also that they won't care about you as much as you've cared about them. At the end of the day, you gotta love yourself before you love someone else. And putting yourself out there isn't necessarily a bad thing because it shows that you're caring and you have a big heart. But the bigger your heart is, the more room there is for it to be bruised. And the more you care about someone, the more power you give them to hurt you. These are the risks we take when we open ourselves to others. But if you're blind to who I am and what you mean to me, I can't beat myself up about it. I did my part and I refuse to let another person make me feel less than what I am. Which is amazing, thank you very much. Labels: babble and rant, personals |